Confession, I almost deleted this post, but I’m going to go ahead and post something a little negative and whiney in the hope that it helps someone else feel a bit better for feeling negative and whiney…
I’m typing this blog post with a hot water bottle on my knee and a heap of crumpled tissues all over my desk. It’s a Monday afternoon and I’ve spent most of the weekend in bed feeling utterly crap with flu. Although I’m feeling a bit better, today hasn’t been great so far either. It took 15 minutes to de-ice my stupid car, I had a huge full on argument with James (blaming PMT for that) and Finley had a meltdown when we left him at nursery which never happens. I cried in the car park.
My sleep for the last month – actually scratch that and let’s get real here, the last 18 freaking months – has been abysmal and my diet has been pretty shit for the last month too. I also haven’t been to the gym in 2 weeks.
We’re still living at my parents’ house and while Finley is sleeping so badly (apparently there’s something called the 18 month sleep regression, as if it could get any worse!) I’m going to bed at 7pm just so I can get as much sleep as I can. I’m not getting much time with James and each weekend is spent working on the new house.
Over the past two weeks I’ve taken on too many projects than is comfortable for me and as much as I’ve enjoyed them I’m just feeling sick, tired and overwhelmed.
I know, I know, woe is me right…
To be honest I’m not even sure where this blog post came from, and I’m resisting the urge to turn it into some inspiration ‘tips’ post or to remind myself that I have no right to feel like this when others in the world are struggling with things a million times worse. However, sometimes life is just a bit crap, and sometimes it’s ok to wallow in it for a while. I’m hoping that by sharing that, someone else reading this will feel a little less alone.
In an online world filled with perfection, rainbows and unicorns it can feel isolating when you don’t have your shit together. The truth though, is that we all have times in our lives when we don’t have our shit together, and that’s ok! It’s part of life’s ups and downs. The trick is how you adapt and change to get back to a place of health, happiness and balance.
So what’s the plan from here?
♥ Listing out some easy to make protein and veggie packed meals and snacks that I can make quickly and that don’t take much cooking. Revisiting this post on healthy eating cheats for the time challenged.
♥ Taking every available opportunity to sleep and being ok with that. Revisiting this post on how to cope when you can’t get any sleep.
♥ Popping Finley in nursery an extra day a week, and using that time for work or more sleep (and being ok with that).
♥ Not adding exercise to the long list of things that stress me out when they don’t happen and just being ok with that right now.
♥ Reframing how I see a lot of things we have going on right now given our ‘limbo’ living situation – i.e. it isn’t going to last forever.
Ultimately, for me, it’s about being ok with the fact that this is just the phase of life I’m in right now. I’m not going to be in my peak health, my self care is going to take some knocks, but it’s not going to be like this forever. What I can do is work with what I have, forgive and love myself a little bit harder and just keep doing my best.
Oops, maybe I did get a bit inspo at the end there ;-)
Is life a bit shit for you right now? If so you have my full permission to let it rip in the comments!